Dreams

Not living for myself anymore
Pain and hurt I endlessly endure
All I want is to be set free
From this suffering and misery
Not bound by the chains of society
But from unfinished commitments towards family

I want to climb the mountains so high
Want to roam in deserts far and wide
Want to live in the forests so dense
Want to go where the world ends
Want to swim in the oceans so vast
Want to do all this till my time lasts

But the mountains I climb are the skyscrapers
The bunch of files is my oceans and rivers
The jungle I roam is of the urban kind
The deserts I wander are in my mind
The world starts and ends in my cubicle
Hoping against odds for a miracle

To fulfill my dreams I take a vow
Not knowing when and where and how
To live for myself one day
To walk along the less traveled way
Not giving a shit to what others say
And wishing in peace my soul will lay

Civilians of War

Mercy I beg, I have done no wrong
A right to live is all I ask
Leave me and my family out of this
Don’t involve them in your ugly task

Why the hell are you bombing me?
What is the cause you endorse?
My cause is to live in peace
Does that violate yours?

Destroying my land from out and in
Raping it for everything
Its children have become mute spectators
Paying for somebody else’s sin

If I die then you win
If I live then I lose
If I’m maimed then I rot
If intact then still of no use

Hell bent on destroying the future
Of me and my children
Will you achieve a permanent solution
If this war you will win

Take a pause and ask yourself
What is the root of this conflict
You tried to push us out of our land
And our land we won’t evict

There is no solution from war
No matter how hard you try
As I shed tears of blood
Hoping in hell you all will die…

Forced Destiny

In a land of no opportunity
A child is born with a destiny
Destined to be a handsome young man
To do things never done by his clan
As he grows he sees injustice and exploitation
Becomes confused with all this annihilation
Wants to study but has no school
Parents and relatives label him a fool
Wants to play but with whom?
Children and siblings return after rise of moon
Wants to laugh but life makes him cry
Failed in all his desires, no matter how hard he tries
Struggles for two square meals a day
Water is his tears which he sheds away
Like this he reaches adolescence
But life still has not made amends
Only two options for him to live
Kill or die but don’t forgive
Frustrated the young man takes the gun
Hoping to correct the cruelty life has done
Violence is chosen for a cause
He did not want to be kicked around like a dog
Like this he spends all his teens
No mercy to any for what they’ve been
Delivering his own brand of justice
One day he is surrounded by police
Bullets sprayed from both the sides
Another young ************* dies
What is he and what could have been?
His life, his tribulations nobody has seen
Young man forced to become dynamite
The world labels him *************

Hypocrites

Pseudo people puking crap
Acting like they are smart and suave
Hissing out sweet venom
Intentions that are demon
Hiding an agenda secret
Smiling but in heart wicked
Waiting to pounce on you
For everything you do
No guilt, no remorse
For the dirty cause they endorse
Talking lies blatantly
With confidence and maturity
Leaving even the devil in shame
In justifying their filthy game
I can’t even stand the smell
Of these people and the lies they tell
This world seems to be fully polluted
Of people debauch and corrupted
You don’t seem to stand a chance
To correct the world with a swish of a band
Ultimately the self is more important to me
All are satiated with hypocrisy

A New Beginning

Can’t rid myself of the past that was
Can’t wash my sins away
Can’t undo the wrong that was done
Can’t hide the demons from yesterday

All I can do is start anew
And change my life from now
No, the burden of past too grave
Keeps catching me somehow

The cruel world keeps relating me
To what I had done ago
Agreed I was immature and stupid
But those habits I’ll forgo

Beg of you to judge me yourself
Don’t go by what others say
Past is gone and future uncertain
I am what I am today

Paradox

Life is a mystery
Life is a misery
Life is a tragedy

Life is hostility
Life is anarchy
Life is monotony

Life is an anomaly
Life is an agony
Life is insanity

So
Death is a cure and
Life is a disease
Life is a battle
Death is the peace

Life is a drama and
Death is the curtain
Life is an uncertainty
Death is the certain

Life is the emotions and
Death is the calm
Life is the convolutions
Death is the charm

Life is the means and
Death is the end
Death is the truth
Life is the pretense

Life is a bitch and
Death is the dog
Life is the devil
Death is the god

Terrorist

Break my chains and set me free
And I promise to follow thee
Give a command my master
And I shall unleash disaster
What has god given to me?
Except pain, despair and agony

My lord
You are the ray of darkness
You are the noose of freedom
You are the unholy sacred
You are the king without kingdom

Tired of this mundane life
Give me a sword or gun or knife
Give me a reason to exist
Your ideology I’ll persist
Let me make a river of blood
Kill some more to make it flood

Cause
You are the blessed curse
You are the violent calm
You are the death divine
You are the painless harm

Accomplished what was meant for me
Spreading pain, fear and anarchy
Now you have left me stray
No more commands for me to obey
Now I shall feed your river
I was me but now I am never

And
You are the faithful backstabber
You are the loyal deceiver
You are the evil good
You are the religious killer

Irony

In spite of friends feeling lonely
In spite of fullness feeling empty
In spite of position feeling powerless
In spite of testosterone feeling emasculate
In spite of status feeling hollow
In spite of depth feeling shallow
In spite of peace feeling desperate
In spite of air I suffocate
In spite of freedom feeling chained
In spite of energy feeling drained
In spite of limbs feeling maimed
In spite of laughter feeling sorrow
In spite of today feeling apprehensive of tomorrow
In spite of liquor feeling pain
In spite of success feeling vain
In spite of riches feeling poor
In spite of assurance feeling insecure
In spite of light feeling afraid
In spite of life feeling dead

Love

Can’t take you out of my head
You’re with me until I’m dead
Admired you, desired you
My inner feelings you never knew
Acted like a loser and fool
Thinking that it will make me look cool
Would have been a slave to your command
Would have fulfilled your every demand
Thoughts which I never expressed
Slowly made me more depressed
A million times rehearsed those lines chosen
But in your presence I became frozen
Would have redefined the meaning of love
If only I was smart enough
A dumb ass fool that I always am
Destroyed everything before it all began
Anytime I close my eyes your face appears
And in loneliness I shed my tears…

Betrayal

Cried for help
Prayed for strength
Hoped for joy
Longed for courage
Appealed for peace
Yearned for fortune
Craved for fame
Begged for respect
Pleaded for mercy
Requested for love
Bowed for blessing
Asked for direction
But it never came
Is it the god that failed?
Or destiny that played?
Or the life before?
Or the deeds before?
Or is it you?

Hell II

Demons, monsters everywhere
Darkness, death and despair
Not an iota of law and order
Nobody a friend, nobody a brother
Emaciated bodies eating shit
Atrophying flesh bit by bit
Blazing inferno everywhere
Hearing nothing else but swear
Hell is the name of the place
Familiar to me in many ways
This is the place where I used to stay
Again I’m here after going away

Hell

Hell is the place to be
Filled with many a personality
If you follow religious text
Going to hell is a chance that’s best
All are sinners one way or other
Some by mistake, some by pleasure
Struggling seventy odd years of life
Parents, relatives, children and wife
Sinning and praying to wash them away
All for a chance in heaven to stay
Converting earth to hell in process
Recalling almighty in times of distress
Forgetting in hell that lord doesn’t come
Cause hell is home to the devil’s son
Who in turn accentuates the misery
And again we pray for ending the agony
We are praying in the wrong land
Never destined to see the lord’s hand
Who cares what happens when we die
At least on this earth live and try
To make this world as the world should be
No.., because hell is the place for me

Slaves of a Cubicle

Slave of a cubicle
Chained by a computer
Servant to a cell phone
Addicted to a monitor

Communication through e-mail
Friends on orkut
Enamored by the a.c.
Diet vended coffee and biscuit

Attire is the formal
Collar is the noose
Sycophantic to the boss
Bogged down by the rules

Ride is the corporate vehicle
Leisure is the inox
Escape is the pub
Freedom is the idiot box

Getaway is the weekend
Wearing levis and adidas
Splurging insanely because
Wallet copious of cards

Resigning is a habit
Not without rhyme and reason
There I will be treated like a better dog
I am choosing a superior prison

Retribution

Boiling blood, burning rage
Run and hide inside your cage
Monster awake, consequences immaterial
Damage I will and damage physical
Evils galore, darkness clout
No mercy weather you beg or shout
Sympathy dead, fear gone
Penalty for the acts you’ve done
Weapon in hand, vengeance in thought
You’ve deserved what you’ve got
Act done, hormones subside
Now time for me to run and hide
Life wasted, future uncertain
Waiting for life to pull its curtain
Neck tied, head covered
At that time a thought occurred
I am dead and so are you
Waiting to see you soon

Domesticated Pets

A child is born, celebrate
Initiate the process to domesticate
Right from day one teach him right and wrong
God, religion, morals, karma all acting along
Domestication everywhere
Not a single place is spare
Home, school, college, university
Streets, busses, trains, society
Workplace and playfield
Religious and war fields
Rules, regulations, order and discipline
Confirm to these else you’ve sinned
Free or a pseudo freedom?
Feeling like confined in a dungeon
What is the purpose, what have we achieved?
Is it order, sense and harmony?
Why do people break the rules?
Misbelieving the lie that they are fools
We are still slave to responses biological
Left behind by the advances technological
Alas, evolution has lost the race
Science and technology well ahead in pace
What is in store only time will tell
I just hope that all is well

I am

I am the fear when you are afraid
I am the words that you never said
I am the tears when you cry
I am the truth when you lie
I am the cop when you steal
I am the wound that does not heal
I am the curse when you sin
I am the loser when you win
I am the thorn when you walk
I am the tirade when you talk
I am the guilt when you confess
I am the limit when it is excess
I am there when you are alone
I am the pity that you’ve never shown
I am the dream when you are scared
I am the clothes when you are bare
I am the cure when you are sick
I am the time when it doesn’t tick
I am the light when it is dark
I am the sign, the indelible mark
I am the mercy when pardon you beg
I am the courage when inhibition you shed
I am the valor when you are bold
I am the warmth during times of cold
I am the question which bothers you
I am the answer which you never knew
I am the ghost in your cemetery
I am your companion when you are buried
I am the blood when you bleed
I am the hunger which you can’t feed
I am the lust when you peep
I am the secret which you can’t keep
I am anger, hatred and jealousy
I am pain, despair and agony
I am love, peace and harmony
I am pleasure, gratitude and mercy
I am sane I am lunacy
I am virtue I am vice
I am ugly I am nice
I am the mountain you can’t climb
I am the one you can’t find
I am you but you are blind

High

Boredom of monotony
It is the high that I need
It is the moment of anxiety
When you set yourself free
Come out of your zone of comfort
Yes, it will take an effort
But you will discover you
Know what is false and true
Feel the force of adrenalin
Feel it come from within
Don’t be afraid and don’t back out
It will give you something to ponder about
There are different routes to ‘high’
One of the routes you should try
Sometimes you tread on a path that is wrong
Times like these be brave and strong
Retrace back and start anew
Tried and eliminated a few
The remaining ones are your passion
Don’t make it your vision or mission
But treading those will give you ‘high’
Enjoy it once before you die

Buddhe Baba

There was a wise man once I was told
The visage of his suggested he was old
This old man had vowed celibacy
He lived in wilderness amidst jungle and trees
With rigorous meditation he became a priest
Was revered by all, human and beast
He dedicated all his life in search of immortality
For discovering the elixir of life he made a brewery
After thousands of recipes success he had none
And one day he decided that this is the last one
With trembling hands he put the potion in his mouth
The heavenly taste made him scream and shout
All these years of failure in vain had not gone
He named the potion after himself, he named it Old Monk

Desire

The pauper wants riches
The hungry want food
The demented wants sleep
Nobody knows what’s good

The loser wants victory
The victor wants fame
The failure wants success
The loner wants dame

The owner wants profit
The labour wants right
The society wants order
But still we continue to fight

The diseased wants health
The meek wants power
The senseless wants senses
The naked wants a cover

Nobody knows what they want
Nobody knows what they need
Nobody knows themselves
It is just greed they feed

Needs and desires never end
But hey they are good
They are the fire in our belly
And that is why things are the way they should

Agreed that root of all suffering
Is our desires and want
It is as was said by great men
Can’t abdicate them I can’t

Close your eyes and imagine once
How our society will be
If all relinquish their desires and needs
And renounce whatever is worldly

Nobody works nobody cares
A world full of sages
It will stop the evolution of man
And take us back to ages

All cannot be learned at once
There will be only a few great men I say
They will teach us why and how to live
But these things we won’t obey

Madre

My source of light, my only hope
Without her I see no scope
Her love is the fuel of my life
This keeps me going stride by stride
This is why I suppress my monster
Only because I truly love her
This makes me civilized
But little do others realize
That I am burning inside
The whims and fancy of society
Is too complicated for me
Feel like a missing piece
Tried by all but did not fit
It is then like guiding light
Her love enters and fears subside
Without her I am void
My reason to live and die
Made me what I am today
Lost for words cannot say
How much I truly love her
No one else but my mother