A New Beginning

Can’t rid myself of the past that was
Can’t wash my sins away
Can’t undo the wrong that was done
Can’t hide the demons from yesterday

All I can do is start anew
And change my life from now
No, the burden of past too grave
Keeps catching me somehow

The cruel world keeps relating me
To what I had done ago
Agreed I was immature and stupid
But those habits I’ll forgo

Beg of you to judge me yourself
Don’t go by what others say
Past is gone and future uncertain
I am what I am today

Paradox

Life is a mystery
Life is a misery
Life is a tragedy

Life is hostility
Life is anarchy
Life is monotony

Life is an anomaly
Life is an agony
Life is insanity

So
Death is a cure and
Life is a disease
Life is a battle
Death is the peace

Life is a drama and
Death is the curtain
Life is an uncertainty
Death is the certain

Life is the emotions and
Death is the calm
Life is the convolutions
Death is the charm

Life is the means and
Death is the end
Death is the truth
Life is the pretense

Life is a bitch and
Death is the dog
Life is the devil
Death is the god

Terrorist

Break my chains and set me free
And I promise to follow thee
Give a command my master
And I shall unleash disaster
What has god given to me?
Except pain, despair and agony

My lord
You are the ray of darkness
You are the noose of freedom
You are the unholy sacred
You are the king without kingdom

Tired of this mundane life
Give me a sword or gun or knife
Give me a reason to exist
Your ideology I’ll persist
Let me make a river of blood
Kill some more to make it flood

Cause
You are the blessed curse
You are the violent calm
You are the death divine
You are the painless harm

Accomplished what was meant for me
Spreading pain, fear and anarchy
Now you have left me stray
No more commands for me to obey
Now I shall feed your river
I was me but now I am never

And
You are the faithful backstabber
You are the loyal deceiver
You are the evil good
You are the religious killer

Irony

In spite of friends feeling lonely
In spite of fullness feeling empty
In spite of position feeling powerless
In spite of testosterone feeling emasculate
In spite of status feeling hollow
In spite of depth feeling shallow
In spite of peace feeling desperate
In spite of air I suffocate
In spite of freedom feeling chained
In spite of energy feeling drained
In spite of limbs feeling maimed
In spite of laughter feeling sorrow
In spite of today feeling apprehensive of tomorrow
In spite of liquor feeling pain
In spite of success feeling vain
In spite of riches feeling poor
In spite of assurance feeling insecure
In spite of light feeling afraid
In spite of life feeling dead

Love

Can’t take you out of my head
You’re with me until I’m dead
Admired you, desired you
My inner feelings you never knew
Acted like a loser and fool
Thinking that it will make me look cool
Would have been a slave to your command
Would have fulfilled your every demand
Thoughts which I never expressed
Slowly made me more depressed
A million times rehearsed those lines chosen
But in your presence I became frozen
Would have redefined the meaning of love
If only I was smart enough
A dumb ass fool that I always am
Destroyed everything before it all began
Anytime I close my eyes your face appears
And in loneliness I shed my tears…

Betrayal

Cried for help
Prayed for strength
Hoped for joy
Longed for courage
Appealed for peace
Yearned for fortune
Craved for fame
Begged for respect
Pleaded for mercy
Requested for love
Bowed for blessing
Asked for direction
But it never came
Is it the god that failed?
Or destiny that played?
Or the life before?
Or the deeds before?
Or is it you?